Twinkies

Ashley spent the night last night and we baked some today. While Amy and the boys were here and they played out in the snow. It was fun but honestly I'm really stressed out. I have realized lately how much I depend on plans. And how bad I am when it comes to being a perfectionist. I plan things and try so hard to make things so perfect. And it seems God just doesn't want me to do that. Because he is constantly ruining it. I went to alot of trouble to plan this holiday out. And things keep getting thrown at me. I'm hoping that it will still all work out. And I will be able to see Joseph on valentines day still. I don't care if its him here or me there.. I just want to be with him on valentines day. I just want to see him. I miss him so much. I will get on a plane tomorrow if I have to. But I am noticing that I seriously can't stand not knowing what is going to happen. I want him to tell me what is going to happen. Are you driving here? Leaving friday? Am I flying there? Leaving tomorrow? Friday? Saturday?? JUST TELL ME! I know the weather makes things hard. But oh my gosh! Please just tell me. Please just make a plan and lets stick with it. If the weather ruins it lets go from there. But I can't take this go with the flow attitude he has lol. His work could tell him tomorrow he is having some meeting or he has to go to California or something and he'd be fine with it. But I just don't work like that. I mean I can do anything if you tell me a date and a time probably. And if I had a plan on how I was going to do it. Sigh him and I are just different when it comes to this. Its not a bad thing but its going to take some work on my part. And maybe his too.

Chocolate strawberry

Chocolate and strawberry is the best combo ever created by man. That being said.. I went shopping today with Mom. It was odd spending so much time with her. And especially odd since I offered to buy the clothes she was helping me pick out..and she said no. And even MORE odd that not only was she buying me clothes and picking out clothes with me but insisting that I needed new clothes since I was going to meet Joseph's mom. Odd.. But it was..actually..fun? Fun isn't the right word but I'll just go with it. I got 6 pairs of skinny jeans. They were buy one get one free. And I got two new shirts. Some new panties and bras and socks. And I got some valentines day stuff for JoJo. I have so much to do still before he comes.. But I have a feeling I'll have plenty of time.. He was suppose to find out today when he was going to be able to come. And he still hasn't found out. He said tomorrow morning. But I bet you anything he won't be able to leave until friday (if that) and then the weather will probably keep him. I hope he at least makes it by valentines day.. =[

Snow..snow..snooooowwwww

Today I cleaned and did laundry. Nothing big. I was suppose to go to Wal-Mart and get some stuff so I could start baking. But the snow storm and sleet made me change my plans. Frustrating.. Hopefully I can get out long enough tomorrow to do what I need to do. If not I'm going to be rushing to do everything wed/thurs. Oh well. It will work out I think. The snow sure was pretty today. I just wish I had my werewolf here to warm me up.. Soon though =]

Miss him

I did nothing today but feel like crap. I slept on and off. But even when I slept it was only because of the nyquil and it wasn't even restful sleep. I have been sneezing and coughing all day. I think its just my allergies and stuff but its not going away. Maybe its because of my damn ear still I don't know. But I have so much to do before JoJo comes to see me this week. I can't afford to be sick tomorrow. So I'm going to drug myself up again tonight. /crosses fingers

Chicken Blaster

Today I went to Adam's basketball game. Then I went to the Cabot house and got some stuff I left there. It was depressing going there again. And seeing my room all cold and unlived in. Plus I just really miss it.. But oh well..it was good to see Rogue again. He missed me and I missed him. And then I met Lori, Kevin and the kids at Chili's for lunch. Then we went shopping to a bunch of different places that I am not going to even bother trying to remember. I had to get a wallet for my valentine day outfit. And I got some other stuff too. Some stuff I needed for JoJo's valentines day gift. And Lori and Kevin registered at some places for the baby. And we went on a random road trip to Bryant for Lori's job. And then Lori and I went to Wal-Mart. And now I'm home and tired as hell. I took a bubble bath and some nyquil and I'm ready for bed. Now to just get JoJo to call me..

I heart blank

Today Amy was here with the kids most of the day. And we hung out. And I refused to play games. I wasn't really feeling it. But eventually I did bust out some just dance moves with Adam. And then Angela, Amy and I went shopping. I got a pair of heels for my valentine outfit. And a necklace for it too. I wanted the pair of converse pictured. Buuuut Angela gave me the look of death. I will probably go back and get them though. And write JoJo on them! :DAfter we got the shoes (Angela got a new pair too since JoJo stole her black pair) we went to Crazy Hibachi. Where your table is a grill and the chef cooks the food right in front of you. And throws it at you too. Lulz. It was the best fried rice I've ever had. I ate more today than I have all week! (Not a lie.) I also got some stuff for valentines day. I want everything to be perfect. Call me a perfectionist if you must..but I really want this to be a good valentines day for Joseph and I. Its important to me (for once) normally I tell this holiday to go fuck itself. But this time I'm embracing it. And its fun! Anyway, I honestly can't remember any quotes from today. And even if I could I would still end it here because I smell like fried rice and grease. And I want to shower. So..later.

Stunned

I'm amazed and stunned that I have been able to keep up with this project with a cute werewolf constantly distracting me. /raises eyebrow

But the good news is not only did I keep up with the project but I even remember to get a pic of him. Though I still failed at getting a pic of us. Its okay though..plenty of time for that! Next time he is here though I think I might have to take a moment to say hey..I need to blog JoJo. Because there are so many things that happen while he is here that I don't want to forget. Sweet quotes he says and funny stories that happen. Like Mollie the banker asking if he was my father. LULZ. Can't wait for valentines day. FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE! Normally I hate valentines day! But for once I am looking foward to it. Because for once in my life I'm going to actually have him with me. I mean sure I've had a boyfriend during valentines day before.. But not PHYSICALLY with me! I'm so excited. I hope I can actually look pretty for him. Curls and make up and heels and all that stupid girly shit that will make him go "woah!" or something to that effect. Weeeeeee! Girly moment..